“Demanding the food you crave”

Yet they kept on sinning against him, rebelling against the Most High in the desert. They stubbornly tested God in their hearts, demanding the foods they craved. They even spoke against God himself, saying, “God can’t give us food in the wilderness.” Psalm 78:17-19

Verse Reflections:  This is so me!  I keep sinning against God (and myself).  I keep testing God in my hearts and demanding foods that I crave.  I rebel.  I demand.  I sin.  I speak against God.  What is wrong with me?  This verse humbles me and makes me sad.  I am no better than the Israelites.  It is so easy to read the Bible and think I can’t relate, or I would never do what they did.  But when I separate out this verse I so clearly see that I am one and the same.  I stubbornly test God.  I ask for His help and then refuse it when I smell or see the foods that I crave and desire.  I keep choosing my idol, the food, over God.  I know that I am pouring sugar and flour and chocolate and butter and boiled oil into my body because it tastes good.  I refuse His help even when I know I have the power to say no.  I demand the foods I crave by cooking ridiculous amounts of sweets, frying foods, buying processed foods and eating entire bags, ordering from the restaurants foods that I have no business eating.  And I KEEP doing it!  I am these people.  Stubbornly, I do this over and over again.  I have never been in the wilderness where I did not have access to the foods so I don’t have to speak against Him in that fashion.  But I do speak against His power every time I choose food over Him.  My heart gets hard and I even say out loud, “God I don’t care, I am eating this”.  I constantly refer to tomorrow.  And yet, tomorrow never comes.  I am sinning every time I do this.  I am rebelling against Him and the commandments He has given us.  Today I am going to confess my sin and quite testing God.  I am going to eat the healthy foods He has given us.

 

Prayer:  Father, I confess my sins to You today.  I keep on sinning against You and sadly, I am sinning against myself as much as You.  Perhaps that is always true with sin because when we sin, it affects us.  You always want the best for us.  If we would listen to You we would be healthier, happier.  God, You know more than anyone how I have stubbornly tested You over and over.  I have gorged on food to the point that a football player would probably be amazed at the quantity.  I have demanded the foods I craved even when I heard Your voice screaming at me to stop.  I have spent money I didn’t have.  I have left my home to get groceries.  I have cranked the car to go to a specific restaurant that served a specific food that I “needed”.  God I cannot criticize anyone in the Bible.  I am these people.  I ask for Your forgiveness.  Help me today to quit this sin.  Help me to not demand certain foods.  Convince me not to stubbornly test You.  I adore You.  Help me to show You by choosing Your foods and not the ones that I demand.  I love You.  Today, I am going to show You.