“Fear the Lord”

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Proverbs 31:30

Verse Reflections:  Boy, the beauty is fleeting.  I look in the mirror some days and wonder what happened.  I guess that makes this journey more important to me.  I have to “fix” this roller coaster that I have been on most of my life.  I have to be healthy on the inside.  I think sometimes I depend on God’s grace to get me through my weaknesses, my addictions, my cravings and compulsions.  I assume He will forgive me and I can start again the next day.  It is easier that way.  Perhaps I need to incorporate the “fear” of the Lord more into my life.  Perhaps is will make me look at this love- hate relationship with food differently.  I should fear the Lord enough to make my issues black and white.  I should fear the Lord enough to eat healthy, knowing this is what God has commanded.  I also have to make sure I am on this new life journey for beauty only.  I need to ensure that I am eating healthy for God.

Prayer:  Father, help me not to analyze my looks today.  Help me to focus on You.  When I want to eat, when my mind begins to spin and obsess on eating a certain food, please take my hand.  I guess I can fear You and still take Your hand.  I pray that You will make me fear You enough to know there are NO options in my life.  I pray that I can eliminate the grace I have given myself to make the same mistakes over and over and over again.  I feared my Dad and His discipline enough growing up that I eliminated the behaviors that caused him to get angry.  I think I have absorbed Your grace too many times.  Forgive me.  I hope that I can incorporate a little fear into my life.  I know, like my Dad, You want the best for me so I should value Your wrath that protects me from my own actions that might hurt me.   Today I will try to eliminate my unhealthy habits that might elicit Your wrath.  Today I will try to fear You enough to change forever.  I love You.